Philip (Phil) England

  Sunday 5 th June Woke up in pain all over today, and to some bad news. A friend of mine that I met at a Cuppa & Chat group had passed away in the night at Morriston Hospital. Nothing prepares you for that news, its like getting punched when you open a door. The older I get; the more people seem to be passing. At school no one warned you that when you get older people you know, even around your own age, will pass on. I am feeling depressed, helpless, fed up and wondering who’s next? My father isn’t getting any younger, next year he will be 80, he seems to be full of energy and always on the go, I am sure I don’t take after him, my sister seems too though! I spilt boiling water when making my morning cuppa this morning, missed the cup, I have been doing that an awful lot of late thanks to my left eye being all a blur. A bit of good news today, finally, England have one the first test in the cricket, its best of 3, they were playing New Zealand.

Feeling fed up right now. My blurry eye is pissing me off right now and the floaters I can see too, the 25th May can't come soon enough. Fed up of my aches and pains. On the 8th May it was my birthday, I needed to get out. Managed a short walk around Clyne and then the Marina, all the time in pain, but trying to keep going. My left hip has been playing up for a while, and now the right one seems to want to join in. It's like my entire body is ganging up on me. Co-codamol, Gabapentin and CBD oil - the three things that help reduce, but not much. Now, why is CBD oil so expensive? Monday I went to see Juliet, she understands what I am going through. Had a hot chocolate and a catch up chat. I wonder when hospital appointments are going to start back up again? I really need a letter to get me moved out in to a ground floor flat. St Thomas or Mount Pleasant would be cool for me.