Philip (Phil) England

  I'm not feeling like Christmas right now. My Dad's woman friend, Tel, passed away, she was found by Police yesterday, after Dad hadn't heard from her in a few days. I'm feeling less than perfect. He's not told my sister yet, but she couldn't care less! She's said as much in an email basically washing her hands of it all and has more or less told me to take sides. Now I'm going to have to confront Dad about his house, there's no way I can set foot in there as the smell makes me want to throw up, didn't want to do that til new year. Oh what a Christmas this will be, damn it. I feel like I'm trapped between two dead end roads with no right of way. My downstairs neighbour said if my sister isn't talking to him she won't know I've been there. I can see where she is coming from though. I can't set foot in the house as it is anymore, it turned my stomach the other day, even a face mask don't help. I've decided to send my Da

October, and Autumn seems to have really arrived  with wind and rain! The early part of this month I felt very sluggish and tired, spent a lot of time in bed, I really think I have the seasonal blues!. Friday 7th: Had Nero as always during the day time, then in the evening had Cosmo and Harley, but before they arrived decided to invite Neil up to help me with them. Saturday 8th: Had a pain in my side when I woke up, it was there a little bit yesterday but only slight. Run Neil and the dogs over to his. In the evening pain was still there but worse, not bad enough to warrent phoning NHS111 or out of hours doctor. Sunday 9th: Feeling cold, and still have that pain, but it is easing. Monday 10th: Monday morning, start of a new week, same old problems. Back, neck and shoulders up to their usual thing, pain at a so-so level of 5 out of 10. I'm feeling cold and drained, but I must get the milk in though, so must summon up the energy to get out of bed! Tuesday 11th: The pain continues

Thursday 14th April   I feel like staying in bed, but must try to get up. I am in agony with my shoulders and lower back and am a bit pissed off. The eye specialist's secretary phoned yesterday after I sent an email. I'm still down to be seen, but they have a slight backlog. Apparently when they operate on my bad eye is down to the health of the good eye.... Bloomin' stupid if you ask me. I again pointed out that it is affecting what I can do, and my enjoyment of life. I want to get out there and go for long drives and walks in nature and visit new places, but can't enjoy anything. I'm so fed up, I just want it done so I can enjoy my life again. I don't want to be living life with my left eye all a blur. It's really getting to me and dragging me down UPDATE - Monday 25th April: After an eye test and field vision test for the DVLA carried out at Specsavers in Swansea, have been cleared to keep driving and had my driving licence renewed! (due to health