Philip (Phil) England

1st : Made it through January, that dragged for sure. Slept in today, well it was Sunday. A little achy, nothing too bad. Was in bed by 8pm, and watched some Rizzoli and Isles on Amazon Prime Video. 2nd : 4:40am - Woken up very itchy, feels awful, want to scrape out the inside of the bones in my arms and left hip ... damn fibro flare up. 7am - I try to get out of bed for a pee and my left knee plays up... damn it. Was in bed early this evening. 3rd : I should get out of bed, but am so snug under the duvet... Feeling a bit achy, hips and shoulders mostly. 4th : Bit of a meh day, feeling a little achy and totally meh. 5th : 6:30am - Feeling down today, just feel like a bed day, but need to get up for my tablets. I aching from head to toe, and feel very itchy, plus irritable. 8:50am - Guess I should try to get the day moving. Need to try this magnesium spray that is supposed to help woth aching joints. 6th : Very achy, things I must get done today, here's hoping a show...

Following on from the Autumn Statement on Wednesday, and BBC Question Time. I'm on ESA, I want to work, and have even tried applying for jobs. My health is a warning sign it seems to employers. I have days when I can't get out of bed, where it's just too much of an effort to even lift my head off the pillow. When I am able to do things I throw my all into it. I then suffer because of it by my body rebelling. It really gets on my nerves. I would love to work, but there are so many fit and healthy people about, why would a company take on someone like me who would be unreliable for them and the work world in general? Do the government see this or understand this? I'm on PIP, the mobility part goes towards keeping me independent (can't use busses due to anxiety) the other part goes towards CBD oil to reduce my need for some medication and to save the Welsh NHS money on my prescription. I'm on ESA as well, this is used for the rest of my living costs. I ...