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UPDATED 30th March: Lockdown Easing, I'm worrying

Since the Covid-19 situation started, my mental health has been all over the place, a roller coaster ride of ups and downs. Now that things are looking like they are easing I am scared, frightened to be mixing with people. The friend I am in a bubble has noticed that I have changed.

I am not sure I can mix with people again, my mind is not up to it, I am not sure I know how to properly anymore.  As daft as it sounds, I think being social for me is out of the question. I am scared to be social in person with people out in the world.

Scared I will catch something, scared I can't get on any more, scared I can't live life again.

I feel like I will be trapped in my mind when everyone else is venturing out in to the wide world to live again.

I have breathing issues, blood pressure problems and depression, all of which Covid has impacted and amplified. Attempting to go to shops to get fresh produce that I really like to choose my self has led to shortness of breath and panic attacks and also episodes of feeling sick and sickness.

It is not a good place to be in living with myself. I love my friends and love to hug them and spend time with them all. I know however that in my current mindset just thinking of seeing anyone is making me worry and panic.

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And to add to my depression and anxiety, there is anger and dismay.... this is just shocking, why.... just why? 

My faith in humanity has taken a massive hit thanks to idiots not following Covid rules, things like this just make it worse. I don't feel I can integrate back in to the social life 😭


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