April 2026

January and February dragged, March flew by, April...., slow down a little

1st: Slow start to it, don't rush me. 

Feel like my heart and my mind and my body has been minced up the past months, think I'm starting to put myself back together. My heads been in the shed. Been a bad day for sure.

2nd; Im feeling like crap, very low, close to tears, sorry can't do today.

Update 1 - can't seem to get today started, just lack energy.

Update 2 - So managed to get my.tablets taken, managed to make a cuppa.

Went outside and sat with the cat from downstairs - it was an effort to get back up stairs again.

Had a really bad evening and night, thanks to Babs for helping me and also Neil, kove you both.

3rd: Slept for most of the day, there are days that you just yave to.

4th: Happy Birthday to my sister. Lets see how today goes shall we. Feeling a bit liw, achy too, will take it easy.

5th: Happy Easter! Went to my sisters today, dispite a lack of sleep, not sure where my mind went last night, but it kept waking me up.

6th: Not long out of bed, feel like going back though. A bit achy, but nothing too bad. My left knee is weak and my left hip hurts too.

Slept a bit better last night thank goodness.

7th: Slept a bit today, but must have been needed. Neck, top of back, shoulders, left hip and knee playing up today, pains not really subsided today as it went on. Got parcel coming tomorrow.

8th: I should get up, parcel coming, bit on the achy side, feeling sick with it, and things to do as well ... here goes then (not done this for anwhile, pain 7 out of 10).

Edit @ 11:50am - Waiting for parcel, been outside moved some tubs, having a rest and cuppa before going back out in the garden. Aching even more now (8 out of 10 - will never learn will I?).

Edit @ 8:30pm  - I may have over done things some what today. Right arm and shoulder killing me, also back.

9th: I best get out of bed, need to do my injections, and take my tablets too. A bit achy but not as bad as yesterday (6 out if 10) left knee seems a bit weak too.

10th: Lower back in agony this morning, not too sure why, but things to do later - fed up with aches and pains.

11th: No update today, slept a lot.

12th: Been up half the night with the runs, not a good one, need to make my bed from scratch due to a small accident, couldn't get out of bed quick enough, left knee gave way again too.

EDIT & 1:45pm - Put some garden rubbish into a black bag, also made the bed from scratch AND done my hair, also a wash load. Now having a rest as my back is aching, cuppa and Great Canal Journeys on U&eden.

13th: Lower back and hips in agony this morning, tried to get out of bed and it really hurts. Lucky I have some gabapentin by the side of the bed.... Going to be one of those days I think.

Could have over done things yesterday.

Edit - a gentle walk really helped, eased but not got rid of.

Managed to get out in the garden this afternoon.

14th: Neck in agony this morning and left shoulder and arm, slept on the left side for too long me thinks, and my pillows moved. Pain at about a 7 out of 10. Need to get up though, things to do.

15th: Feeling headachy this morning, think I slept too heavy, a bit achy too but nothing that bad, pain at about 5 out of 10. Got parcels coming today.

9pm Update - Nodded off, woke up in tears... damn it, it's a rollercoaster for sure. Turning phone off, need quiet.

16th: Didn't sleep too good, felt really low, kept tossing and turning all night, very achy now too, and very exhausted. Going to have a day of rest, but also have things to do.

6:30pm update - No, can't shake the feeling of being low, so early to bed I think, heated blanket on and crap to watch.

17th: Not 100% better, but getting there, feeling a little down still but as said, getting there. Neck and top of back achy, along with shoulders and left arm (too long sleeping on left side I think again).

18th: Not too good this morning, thumping headache, feeling sick too.

A bit achy, but nothing too bad, left hip hurts, neck and top of back.

Should be better weather kicking in today, so need to try to pot up my sun flowers.

19th: I should get up I guess, will pot up my sunflowers today.

My back hurts this morning along with my hips 😞 lets see how this goes.

On getting out of bed my left knee felt very weak, lucky my crutch was close at hand!

Late update - Why is it, I find night time the hardest time of the day when all alone in the dark, feeling down and on edge? Feeling down and crappy.