January 2026
Abwalk to start the year off, up to the top of Kilvey Hill, coughed up green gunk which felt good.
Went to bed early as was feeling down.
2nd: Woke up in the early hours in floods of tears, think I was thinking about my Dad and the scattering of his ashes, seem to also remember thinking of Mum at some point in the night.
Been feeling down and achy most of today, don't think it will be too long before I return to my pillow and duvet.
I need to pop to the shop but right now I can't be bothered..... NOT a good start to 2026 is it?
3rd: Woke up to a dusting of snow.... it sure is cold but pretty. Very achy this morning, and feeling down.
4th: Things to chase up this week with the solicitor and estate agent, also with the hospital about my Ankylosyn Spondylitis (by now should have been on new injections), and need to speak to the doctor. Also got eye appointment.
Lets get through Sunday first, feeling achy and a bit sick.
Need to deal with Dad's ashes too.... getting dragged down with them being here.
5th: Was so snug in my ved this morning I had a lay in, more snow fell in the night, but just a sprinkle, and that froze. Back and neck hurting and left knee is weak.
I cant have any form of operation as my knees are not bad enough 😔 and as for my back they seem reluctant to do anything to it - it really gets me at times.
6th: Fed up of the freeze, aching all over and a building headache to boot. Bed early for me.
7th: Not too good this morning, feeling sick and sore from head to toe, back and neck in agony. At least it's not freezing!
8th: Woken up by something but not sure what exactly, but seem to hear sort of pain signals in my head but can't feel any, maybe I should have a gabapentin and see if I can get more sleep? after all it's 4am.
Bit achy and groggy today, but have an eye appointment at the hospital today and then can't drive for a while after it.
Well had my eye appointment, don't have to go back for a year.
9th: 4:10am - Woke up feeling sick, and with my whole body feeling like crap. 5am- Was just sick, now I feel cold and shaky, back under the duvet I go.
I've been struggling getting in to the bath for a shower lately, almost slipping or falling.
10th: Why has my body decided to wake me up? I'm feeling exhausted, my bed looks like a tornado has landed on it, need to make the bed and get back in it! too early to get up. My neck is killing, shoulders too.
11th: Up early to go up to Mid Wales to pick Hannah and Nero up. Neck achy and feeling an achy left side.
Got stuck getting up to where Hannah was, had a nice gentleman dig me out of compacted snow ice - im stressed but am turned around and on better road surface.
In dire need of a strong tea with three sugars!
Snow is nice to look at awful to get stuck in!
Sure was nice to be with Nero again, I've missed this dog.
12th: Good night's sleep at the Travelodge in central Burton Upon Trent, thinking I may need a new mattress, my mattress is about eight years old, maybe I will wait until I've moved? Nero been to the vets today, so decided to stop extra night up here to make sure he is ok and Hannah too.
13th: Long drive back, another good night's sleep, really loving Travelodge's beds, also their shower gel. Stopped in a few places on way back, got back home had decent cup of tea.
14th: Fell asleep on sofa, so very neck and back achy. Catching up on TV today, think an early night. I must get my mind round to scattering my Dad's ashes.
15th: Was in bed by 11pm, been a restless night, slept for a bit, but mostly awake moving from side to side, had a plan to scatter Dad's ashes today, but lack of sleep may have made that a non starter, feel shattered.
16th: Think I am caught up on sleep, maybe I could do with a little bit more. Apparently it's going to be a wet weekend. A bit achy but am ok-ish. Not much on tv, so may just watch some old stuff on Amazon, Disney+ or STV Player.
17th: Feeling cold this morning, not too sure why, also a bit achy too. Heating pad is on.
Well Dad's ashes are scattered, feeling down, so early to bed.
18th: It's a bad day today, very achy, feeling sick, just want to hibernate. Feeling very down.
19th: Been feeling down today, very sleepy, ved early today.
20th: Very blowy outside, in agony today, trying to move through it, not sure I am winning but am trying! Feeling a little down, but improving.
21st: Another day, neck, shoulders and back playing up, some how my pillows ended up down bottom of the bed in the night. Must get up, need pain killers.
It's art today at hub on the hill... if my body allows.
22nd: Got a nasty cough back this morning, a little achy and in pain but that is normal.
23rd: Didn't sleep too good, shoulder really killing, and #fibromyalgia is playing up again, my back and left hip killing, thank goodness I have gabapentin by the bed.
24th: It's very windy out there, it woke me up a few times in the night. Very achy this morning, hope it eases. Thumping headache too.
Afternoon update: Shoulder feels like crap, neck too, that's what I get for just tidying up a bit.
25th: Woken at 4am in great pain, fibro flare up - whole body aching and skin tingling, feeling a bit sick with it, but no energy to get out of bed... Feel like crap.
26th: Monday morning,.in pain but pushing on through, things to do before the heavy rain and wind return later.... sometimes you just have to.
Took the plastic urn back to the funeral directors in Burry Port, then had a very wind swept walk by Burry Port Harbour, was almost blown off my feet!
7pm -.Not feeling 100%, a bit on the achy side.... under electric over blanket. Early night is on the cards.
27th: Damn it.... skin itchy, extremely achy all over, feeling like I want to scoop the inside of my bones out.... It's another #fibromyalgia flare up. Feeling weak as a kitten too.
Early to bed for me.
28th: I suppose I should get out of bed. Not too bad today, a bit achy but at least it at a more manageable level. Must go to the chemist this morning.
Update - Been to the chemist, had a bit of a slip going up the stairs when I got back, jarred my back a bit, pain killer time - have to see how the pain is as the day goes on, and see how it goes.
Went to bed about 9pm, and feel full of wind.
29th: I should get out of bed but really don't think I want to, even though I must. Got a phone appointment and need to take my tablets and do two injections. Not feeling right.
UPDATE - Chased a few things, done injections. Now using heat pad to ease aches.... it really helps!
2nd UPDATE - Had the runs yesterday evening and into today, but that seems to have stopped thank goodness.
30th: Been sick this morning, back under the duvet as feeling cold, neck and shoulders in agony so could be caused by pain... it's happened before.
31st: A so so kind of day, feeling a bit short of energy.
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