September 2026

Let's do September then.....

1st: New month, and no change. Feeling very down and very achy too. As it comes up to the anniversary of my father's passing on the 5th, I didn't really expect anything less, I just have to try to do what I can when I can.

EDIT - Still in bed, went to get out of it and my knee went weak, so been doing some exercises. It took a while but FINALLY managed it!

EDIT 2 - J&J Motors phoned, car booked in for service on Thursday 9am.

2nd: 2:10am - Woke up with a bad stomach, and the runs... also thumping headache and back in agony. Feeling very down.

7:40am - Achy from head to toe, stomach seems to have settled though thank goodness and no more runs. I can hear its raining again... making me want to pee.

EDIT - Just about got out of bed only took 40mins, sat on my bath board and had a shower with the plug in the bath so my feet had a nice soak - feel totally knackered now though.... that's what Fibromyalgia does to you!

3rd: 1am - Woken up sweating, not feeling too great, feel a bit confused. I'm looking forward to going up to see Hannah and Nero later, yet feeling low and a bit emotional too. Earlier I was sick, something that happens a lot when I seem to get overwhelmed in life. I wonder if Fibromyalgia can amplify feelings like it does pain?. I need to get more sleep.

6am - Woke up before the alarm, feeling very emotional and was sick again, having a rethink, will go to garage first, come back to flat then put fuel in and head off, will give stomach a chance to settle down.

10am - Been to garage, car ok except battery needs topping up, its 1/3 where it should be, but as long drive ahead that will put charge back in. Theres a Suzuki garage in Derby that I can call, explain whats what and they should get me in to check it over.

4th: Slept well, Nero was on my feet when I woke up. Bit of an achy neck but am awake, well, sort of.

Evening Update - Was out in Swadlingcote earlier, saw a print of 'The Haywaine' by Constable, was one of Dad's favorite pictures, seeing that dragged me down, then I decided to sit on a bench when Hannah and Neil went in to a hardware store, I noticed I was sat opposite a funeral directors..... hmmmm, more thoughts.

5th: 3am (ish) - woke up feeling short of breath and a little drained. I need to get my memories out today, they may help in future. 

I remember being phoned by the hospital at about 4am on the day my father passed away, telling me to get in as soon as I could, they asked if I wanted to phone my sister to let her know. I pushed that decision back on to them, I wasn't strong enough to make it, and it took me too long to get sorted out to get there. I know I have my health issues but still. 

I find this a failure on my part.

9:10am - Feeling very headachy and stuffy, exhausted even though I have not done anything. Achy too, especially shoulders and top of back.

It was about 9am on 5th that my Dad passed away, was stuck in traffic and got to the hospital late, never forget my brother in law meeting me in the nain corridor of the hospital, taking me outside into the garden. He didn't need to say a single word, I think I knew when I pulled in to the carpark and found a space to park, almost as if my Dad had sorted it.

It's been a tough year, and won't get easier any time soon.

4:30pm - Been out today, fresh air and a walk among nature and some wonderful buildings, and three good friends.

Spoke to my sister, she is feeling like crap, yet still working, she described a feeling she had, it was exactly how I feel, like you've been kicked in the stomach.... Not a good feeling, sort of feels like you are gonna throw up.

8pm - Had a nap, woke up from it not feeling right, sort of felt hollow and thumped and a bit dazed, a very strange feeling. 

6th: Was going to go to a car boot sale first thing, but body was weak, had no energy to get out of bed, and feel like crap anyway, with a thumping headache to boot.

Had some fresh air and a gentle walk.

7th: Very achy this morning, long drive ahead, feeling a bit sick, but must think about moving. Not sure what way to head back.

8th: A little achy today, probably all the driving from yesterday. 

Forgot to say Happy Birthday to Bill in Cardiff (not been online much, sorry, had other things on my mind, still have, which reminds me got a few strongly worded emails to send to a certain solicitors..... which they will get later today as I'm getting pissed off.

This new pillow I got Sunday with Hannah's help is brilliant, and supports my back, head and hips when in bed, also it appears no acid reflux if I sleep on the right side.

Was joking about calling it Nelly the Elephant, but think it will be called Allanphant. 

Right, time to get on the ball and book those plane tickets to Austria to see Bill & Kelvin next month, 2 really good friends.

9th: My new big pillow seems to be doing the trick. Good sleep had, a little achy but not too bad, still early days, but leased with the results so far. Feel like more time in bed, should I go back for an hour ..... Hmmmmmm.

10th: Had anquiet day, nodding off most of the day.

11th: 25th Anniversary of 9/11 today - never forget

Been awake since 5am, took a while to get out of bed, finally.managed it by 8am, been moving in slow motion since then. I MUST order more CBD patches, but can't find the ones I had got previously.

Afternoon Update - So the parcel is now not coming until tomorrow, but things to get done, tidying up in the flat and potting up outside to do, it looks like rain though .... That will not stop me, feeling peckish, and feel fibro twinges coming on...

12th: Fibro flare up, I knew it, even my new pillow can't do much when confronted with this, having the pillow has made it easier to get out of bed though with the pain strangely enough. Pain level at full volume. May attempt a shower later, cold drink needed right now, but almost out of coconut water.

13th: Feeling achy this morning but things to do, tablets to have as well, recycling to sort out. Slow start to the day ahead.

14th: A bit achy, feeling very clammy today, atmosphere feels a tad heavy and humid, hope that shifts, feeling awful. Need to get out to chemist if I can manage it, left hip killing though.

Came up with a daffy idea, to do great north run but walking ..... naaaah, as said, daft idea.

15th: Nice sleep .... Must I get out of bed? Tablets to have and sort out. Not been given enough gabapentin by chemist. Very achy today again.

16th: Very achy and sick this morning, got my gas check today... will have to sort myself out and attempt to get on with the day.

Was feeling drained today, so bed early for me.

17th: My back is really killing me this morning - not too sure exactly why... also left hip... Must book car park at airport ahead of holiday and sort few other bits out as well today, and have my tablets too. Guess I must get out of bed then.... If I can manage it.

18th: Woken up at 2:20am in agony, not good with an early start.

6:30am - Still achy, and sick with it too, but need to get up and out.

19th: Left shoulder and top of back hurts, as well as neck this morning, along with general aches today, it is very damp out so it's no wonder.

Taking a break from Facebook for a while, so the only place to read my blog is here.

20th: 2:30am - been waking up at.night feeling sick and in various degrees of pain for a number of nights now, true, sometimes sickness turns to the runs, but not sure why.

Not had it as often as thos in a row before until now, the odd night yes.

5am - Still feeling sick but must get some more sleep.

8:30am - still not feeling right, feeling sickish and sluggish.

Just published another post, one about doomsday coming in November and the prediction made by a scientist in 1960.

7:30pm - Been feeling lethargic all day, but managed to give my oven a clean and put my plastic recycling out. Early to bed for me.

21st: Very achy this morning, pillows ended up on the floor in the night. Must get my wardrobe sorted out today uf my body allows. Also must see what's going on with my outside plants. But first, to get out of bed.... Not as easy as that sounds.

11:20am - Took a bit of time to get out of bed and sorted. Sorted out my lap top, and few other bits. Feeling somewhat shattered currently.... a little rest needed.

22nd: 3am - woke with bad case of acid reflux and my neck and top part of back in agony, right hip killing too.

8am - acid reflux gone, now I feel gassy. Going to be a slow day today, over did it yesterday - which is why my body is fighting back today.

23rd: Achy but up early, Specsavers appointment this morning, so better get sirted out, not easy to do when you are aching all over. I better turn wifi off ir I will never get sorted out!

24th: Not slept much, not been able to switch my mind off.... plus my lower back is killing a bit, and right shoulder and top of arm. Changes at back of right eye picked up by Specsavers, they did a scan they sent to the hospital.

25th: Feeling fed up today, and achy as well. Aches in numerous places, but more fed up about life really. I will get there.

26th: Feeling achy and chilly thus morning, wind is blowing outside, got recycling to sort out, can't be eating my home made chunky root veg soup again, 4 days and fed up of it. Need to have something else today. Heating on?.... not yet, maybe heating blanket possibly.

27th: Was achy and a little tired today, hence why I wasn't online much today.

28th: Bit achy but ok, doing a podcast later, keep eyes open for details. Had good sleep, reason for that, have been leaving my phone in the living room at night!

29th: Very achy today - neck, shoulders and upper back... not good, hope it eases soon. Bed early today.

30th: Not feeling too bad this morning - sun is out too, intending on venturing outside for a little wander around the green, may go and visit some horses later too. New month tomorrow.

12:50pm - Pleased I got outside when I did, it's clouding over, looks like rain! Went around the green then down the path to see some horses and back. Forgot to take my phone!